As most of you know, this is my Little Man, the one I prayed for, the kind compassionate, little David (the mighty warrior). Well, better than two years ago when he started walking he would limp or favor his right leg. Sometimes it would get to the point that he would start crawling again and not walk on the leg. I would always call the doctors office; they allows asked two questions, "Is it red?, Is it swollen?" The answers were always no.
So back in February it happened again, just this time he began to scream in severe pain. He stopped walking and sat down with his Papaw for probably better than an hour. I called the doctors office again, and was insistent that they see him. I got his pediatrician to refer us on to a pediatric orthopedic doctor. He did x-rays and could find nothing wrong with the leg, so we moved on the the MRI. They did only the knee though.
Better than a year ago, I notice Little Man hitting his ears (from the back forward, flipping them like), rubbing his forehead and eyes. Well, only by the grace and love of God, this Mama asked the right question Monday. I asked, "Why do you hit your ears?" Little Mans response was, "I have bugs on me and they won't come off." "Bugs?" "Yes, bugs everywhere." I don't know about you, but my mind says bugs to a three year old would be like numbness, tingling, etc to an adult.
So back to the doctor we go. This time with more information. The pediatrician still think there is nothing wrong with him, but he is sending us on to a pediatric neurologist. Little Mans pediatrician said there may be some nerve damage in the right leg.
Monday night, when I put Little Man in bed he asked, "Mommy do you have bugs?", I say "no", he said "Does Daddy have bugs?", "No", "Does M______ have bugs?", "No", "Well I__ has bugs?", "No, Little Man I__ does not have bug either." My heart breaks for my Little Man, because he is beginning to realize that what he feels is not normal, but it has been for so long.
Last night, when Little Man was rubbing his forehead, I asked "why are you rubbing your forehead?" His response, "Because it hurts, it hurts real bad" I asked him, "Why are you rubbing your eyes?", "Because they hurt."
So I ask each of you that reads my blog to pray for Little Man and Mommy. The fleshly, intelligent part of Mommy is upset, because I know that there is a compressed nerve somewhere in his spine. The fleshly part of this Mama is deeply upset, by the fact that my Little Man his been in pain for two years, but he has not known how to express it. The fleshly part of this Mama, is scared of the possible permanent damage they may be done to those nerves. But this Mama, also knows that God is in control, he knows what is going on. He knew that it was going to take a couple of years to get to the problem. He knows everything, and there is much comfort in that. The hubby told me last night, it was okay for the fleshly part of have a say, but God needs to immediately follow. Instead of it being God, but fleshly, it needed to be fleshly, then but God. To stay focused on the but God. So I ask that each of you pray for us as we walk through whatever it is God has for us and Little Man.
I don't know why God led me to share this, but he did.