Through much tears and prayer, I came to the conclusion through God and God alone that my issue was not with myself or doubt in God or His ability to do what I know that he has done. My issue was with another. I was broken hearted for someone else and did not know that I was. I was so broken to the point that I did not realize that my Spirit was grieved for the other person. I have never experienced such brokeness and grief before. I can honestly say, I don't want it to happen again anytime soon.
I was persecuted, but God showed me I was still correct in my beliefs. He (God) also showed me that through Him, the Hubby and I have grown spiritual in many areas and this particular area is one in which we don't need to be spoon feed any more. God is using us right now as he does all of us all the time if we will willing listen. It is just one of the many ways that he is using us right now, in worldly eyes, is not good; however, as I have said many times before, it is all good in God's eyes. It is for our continued growth and the continue growth of those involved.
So for my kids, Mrs. Brenda aka Momma is great. I am perfect in God's eyes and I am a work in progress. Do not worry about me, prayer for me and my persecution that will continue until one is changed. Just know that I love you guys, and I am blessed by each of you daily.