For a while now, I have been in quite a funk as I like to call it, some would say depressed. Saturday night the hubby asked, I would like to know what you are carrying and why you are carrying it. I told him I did not know, if I knew it would be easy to lay it down.
Yesterday evening, I went back to church for a meeting and watched the youth practice a drama they were doing for church service. I had seen this drama before done by others on YouTube. Well watching our kids do this it had a much greater impact on me. I began to cry watching the Christ character fighting off the "worldly things". As I watched depression trying take over, I realized that was me, I want Christ but I was no allowing him to fight for me, I was trying to do it on my own.
Mac Daddy, BB and The singer wanted to go out after church last night. On the way to our eating location, I made the same comment to them "if I knew what it was it would be so easy to lay it down." Well during our conservation at the restaurant, I was talking about one thing which led to another, then another. I immediate stopped and just began to cry. I realized I was carry the weight of all my negativity that is so easy for me to pick up. I pick up that I am stupid, ugly, fat, incapable of doing anything right, a bad mom, a horrible wife, you name it I take it on. Needless to say I came home smiling because, I was able to lay it down.
This morning during my Bible study the scripture of Matthew 11:28-30 came up, scripture I have read numerous times, but this time, it was right when I needed it. It states, "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for you souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
I am not back to 100% yet, but man is my burden much lighter. Surrender is always the key, sometimes, we just have to know what the burden is that we are carrying. If you are carry something, I beg of you, hand it over the Christ for His yoke IS easy and His burden IS light.
I am getting a copy of our youths' drama, as soon as I get it I will post it. You will be amazed.